Tears keep filling up my eyes, though I have cried pretty much already. Why do I have to go thru all kinds of pain? Few days ago, I said that I won't be able to survive if I have to live my life over again but now I think I don't have enuff strength left to search for the last hope to go on.

People shrouded in lies and falsehoods, kaleidoscope into oblivion, I keep tumbling around those unknown truths and known 'untruths' that have entangled tender threads of my soul but like a mute, I bear it all... without being able to speak up for myself.