Makes me sad, some of my friends, I regard as my closest friends, yet in the end, they are just one of the others. All I see is the shallowness around me and the hypocrisy that I can't stand.

Those that say "the best person that understands you is YOU" I cannot even begin to comprehend. I don't understand myself, why must I bear the burden of understanding other people.

This chaos within me doesn't let me accept things as they are and I am too weak to make a change. I don't think I will ever be happy again. Yet, I want to be happy …really happy… I want to smile when I wake up in the morning. If only, only, wishes could come true.