I feel like chop fallen. I want to retreat to my shell. Expectations from ppl are rarely met but then why do I keep expecting? Why don't I learn the hard way? After all that I have gone thru, I am still not bitter but I guess its a part of being young... we keep hoping... we keep expecting; once I am an old maid, I am sure I'll be quite a bitter and cynical one.

I guess reality has hit me hard again. I should thank you for that.

And reality continues to ruin my life.