Celebrity at school

He's such a cutie! Hardly a month old BUT more popular than any OII or OIII girl, loved by teachers and students equally, apple of everyone's eye especially the vice-principal.

Yeah, he was discovered in the morning by me and N. Hungry and cold... he was shivering and running wildly. We took him to our computer lab where he was fed and sheltered and of course, photographed... by the three enthusiastic photographers: me, mehr and marium =p

He had a pretty big family that used to live at the backside of the school but sadly, the family members couldn't be found anywhere. Currently, he's at the mercy of montessori kids who try to crush him with their shoes... poor thing! So, muskan has become his guardian and so have many other teachers... LOL!

Any suggestions for the name?

Breaking The Habit

This song struck home.

It's good to be bad sometimes though. =p

memories consume
like opening the wound
i'm picking me apart again
you all assume
i'm safe here in my room
[unless i try to start again]
i don't want to be the one
the battles always choose
cause inside i realize
that i'm the one confused

i don't know what's worth fighting for
or why i have to scream
i don't know why i instigate
and say what i don't mean
i don't know how i got this way
i know it's not alright
so i'm
breaking the habit
tonight

clutching my cure
i tightly lock the door
i try to catch my breath again
i hurt much more
than anytime before
i had no options left again

i don't want to be the one
the battles always choose
cause inside i realize
that i'm the one confused

i don't know what's worth fighting for
or why i have to scream
i don't know why i instigate
and say what i don't mean
i don't know how i got this way
i know it's not alright
so i'm
breaking the habit
tonight

i'll paint it on the walls
cause i'm the one at fault
i'll never fight again
and this is how it ends

i don't know what's worth fighting for
or why i have to scream
but now i have some clarity
to show you what i mean
i don't know how i got this way
i'll never be alright
so i'm
breaking the habit
breaking the habit
tonight

Active volcano

I am not in my best moods these days. I get flared up easily. People have started noticing but I had noticed it well before anyone else had. May be it's the anger boiling up inside. I feel like I can't take anymore. Controlled rage, suppressed anger, withheld feelings – all these are erupting like lava from a volcano.

This is something that shouldn't happen. I had worked quite hard to learn self-control but I think we live in a cruel wicked world. People try your patience to no limit! My obnoxious colleague knowing my weakness doesn't miss a chance to vex me. Sadly, I have become hyper – sensitive also. Tears fill my eyes when I get comments that I am over reacting.

My coordinator called in and complained to mom about my attitude. Oh! Please, cut me some slack! I have been ill for quite a while and I have to finish all piled up work. I have to deal with cold attitudes of you people who assumed that I am not prone to making mistakes. Thank God, my mom understands all this!

I am really really happy that I have resigned… this is something I should have done two months before but unfortunately, I am not kind of person who gives up easily. I looked at my old pics and it's sad to discover that I have lost very much of my freshness and glow and spirit. Courtesy my colleagues and this work place!

So, we are now out of commonwealth. Though emergency rule is not justified but the way things are happening here, I don't think any so-called democratic party would have been able handle it better than Musharraf. We need a person who can rule with an iron hand. Bhutto was the only true politician we had. He had political vision and foresight which many politicians including his daughter, don't have. Sadly, he is history now. Our politicians today can't see anything beyond their personal interests. There is no such word as 'national' in their dictionary. Musharraf, apparently a dictator, has contributed a lot in nourishing democracy in Pakistan. He introduced mayoral system and for the first time, we really have educated people in the cabinet. There has been a growth in financial sector and economy has expanded at its fastest clip. Macroeconomic environment has gained more strength while this government has paid attention to microeconomic finance as well. Anyone who has lived in Pakistan in 90's decade considers Musharraf's regime progressive than the previous regimes.

I can only hope that commonwealth leaders reconsider their decision of suspending Pakistan's membership.

Happy Birthday, Farhat!
Let's cherish our seven years old friendship. Thanks for sticking to me thru all good and bad times :). Luv ya!

You know you are overworked when you wake up in the morning and realize that it's your friend's birthday who you forgot to call last night. You end up texting her with dozen apologies when you get a reply: thank you but its tomorrow =p

xunz: (in class) what date is today?
kid 1: it's 22nd
xunz: 22nd? Are you sure?
other kids: yes, ma'am! Today is 22nd.
xunz: *looks confused* wasn't it supposed to be 23rd today?...

later…
checks her cell and sees F's text:

F: thanks a dozen for waking up at 6 am, my birthday is tomorrow!
xunz: I'm so sorry…. I confused the dates :$
F: no honey, you broke all the records by wishing 18 hours earlier =p.
xunz: yeah, I'm known for that =D.

Dead tired!

Goodnight.

My work place makes sure that I am surrounded by at least one person that makes me feel very very miserable. And at school it is none other than psycho freak N !!! She's a real cunning bitch! Plus unlearned and ignorant! I can't stand her spiteful behavior. She maneuvers things in such a way that you cannot comprehend. I wish I were shrewd like her. Why do nice people like Mamira quit school soon while snide ones like N and Sab, stay for long? O' Lord! Please have mercy!

Did I tell anyone that I resigned because of her? Fucking bitch!

P.S. I am feeling much better now =p

The air is filled with sweet pleasant aroma of roses. Red, yellow, magenta roses along with white blooming tulips surrounded with fresh green buds and combined with their floral fragrance – this presents a sight of vernal bloom. Wrapped in lavender sheet and tied with pink ribbons that flutter with wind; this bouquet attracted attention of many.

It's impossible that you enter my room without gaping at this beautiful rose bouquet on the glass stand. It was given to me by my student Hamna today. My colleagues were quite fascinated by it. Some teachers asked if it was my birthday today. As for Hamna, the girl is really cute! She has great artistic and writing skills. I still have her self-composed poems and drawings. Besides, she is known for doing everything neatly. Only if I could put her picture here. Oh! How much I am going to miss her!

P.S. I will try to put pictures of all my students on this blog so that I will not forget them. I can even look back and recall how pleasant my life was with them.

Back!

Finally, I have resigned from the school. My notice period will end on December 2. Believe me; I feel much at ease now. My resignation created quite a stir in school management and colleagues speculated about reasons of quitting job. Who cares? LOL!

I see that I haven't blogged since quite a while and my readers have missed me. Now that, I have made some friends here in this blogosphere ….its feels great actually =). Nothing new happened in past 20 days except that I was ill. Life seems to be dragging on and I am desperately looking forward to December holidays. Also, Juvaria, is getting married at the end of December. Since I'll be free, I am really excited about it. The sad part is that she'll leave for UK in Jan. I have very few friends in this big world and I will miss her very much. Besides, Mamira is also going to New Zealand in June. I feel that I will be left alone once again.

I will be joining another school from Jan 1st, InshaAllah…. will miss my old students though. That’s how it goes. People come and people go…. and we keep moving on.

To quit or not to quit.... that's the question!

Blogging from school....

I have got a class after 15 mins and I am feeling sleepy =(.
Yesterday, I slept like a baby... slept in the evening at 4 and woke up at 8 then slept again at 11 and woke up at 6 in the morning. Considering my over-sleeping rate i think i need another hibernation period. =p

So true for my boss!

Tomorrow is off.
Tomorrow is off.
Tomorrow is off.

Yaaayyy!!! Thank you Benazir! =p

No wonder, our politicians are the best entertainers!

Eid Mubarak

Mehndi, choorian, colored dupattas, smart attires, an air of celebration and joy – all these are the constituents of Eid.

A happy and blessed Eid to all!

Kahan Hai Tu

Just watched ep's video kahan hai tu on the musik, it makes me sad that the band is not anymore. We had a really cool rock music scene in 2003-04 with ep, noorie and fuzon; rocking the whole nation, even our neighbor also. How cool were the days – singing aloud all ep and noorie songs while sitting together or walking up to the uni gate, spending hours and hours online at their forums, waiting for their gigs and all, listening to their songs million times while studying… life surely, was a bliss! Because of these guys cosmopolitan karachiites actually started watching paki channels. These guys did not only set trends by their videos but also proved that there is more to music than love duets about the fairer sex.

I really miss ep; their music had substance and depth which, many mainstream bands don't have. Of course, the credit goes to xulfi as ep was his brain child but sadly, xulfi is also responsible for band's breakup. Well, the call also rocks but now, we are at the mercy of our pop singers once again – their cheesy songs and glossy videos is all we have to put up with.

Roz roz yeh fasley
Lamha lamha barhney lagey
Bekhudi keh who raastey
Aur hum usee par chal diye

Soch ke saari who batein
Hum usee pe roh diye
Aaj to yeh haal hai
Keh zindagi hum pai hansey

Yeh zindagi teray wastey
Yeh himmat meray haath mein
Yeh chehray meray chehray pai
Yeh saansey

Dheeray Dheeray yeh zindagi
Nafraton mein kho gayee
Yeh aasmaan aur yeh zameen
Aaj hai to kal naheen

Yeh zindagi teray wastey
Yeh himmat meray haath mein
Yeh chehray meray chehray pai
Yeh saansey

Kahan Hoon Mein
Kahan Hai Tu
Kia Hai Yeh Zindagi

Kahan Hoon Mein
Kahan Hai Tu
Kyoon Hoye Ajnabee

Living in the world of hypocrisy
The lies and the deceit
The one who shall rule us all
Will be the one and only one

Watch out! The lyrics that I flow
On your marks... get set go
I’m a white boy comin straight from the L town
Keeping it real I’m a spawn of the underground
I’m the one you hate I’m the one you fear
I’m the voice that whispers inside your ear
Cut ya open deep inside
When ya know what I speak everything is right
Freedom is all that counts
The more you push me the more I'll bounce
Bounce, bounce I said bounce boy
To Base to the kick to the rhythm I deploy
Where ya gonna run where ya gonna hide
When I grab the microphone I say what I like
We're the people of the never ending breed
I am what I am and I am free.

Kahan Hoon Mein
Kahan Hai Tu
Kia Hai Yeh Zindagi
Kahan Hoon Mein
Kahan Hai Tu
Kyoon Hoye Ajnabee

Goodbye Inzi

So, we all bade farewell to Inzi amidst claps and tears. It was a heartbreaking moment to watch him deliver his speech. Sixteen years of cricket history seemed to be contained in that moment. My dad was so touched when he requested robin to speak in urdu to the crowd. Many were on the verge of tears including yours truly. I was hoping he would break miandad's record but then as he said that his heart was so full that the match seemed really difficult today. Yeah, we are a passionate and an emotive nation.

No wonder, he is a cricket legend – we wish him all the best! May Allah bless him!

Back to school

I went to school on Monday after a week off and trust me, I felt good. The only thing I like about this school is my students. It makes your heart burst with happiness when little kids come and ask about your health. Not to mention the plethora of eid cards and teacher's day cards I got. Even my old students brought me cards. Children are strange, interesting little creatures. The more I am strict with them, the more they seem to like me.
May be it's because I talk about their favourite things during free units and take interest in their activities. Trust me; I know all about their favourite cartoons, movies, books, tv shows – indoor, outdoor, computer, play station games. LOL!

Finally, I am breathing again. As time passes, you learn to live with all the hard facts. Though I have nothing to cherish, nothing to hope for – nothing… but to live for present. Well, it's not bad after all… who knows how long I am going to live? =)

And I got 7 days off for eid holidays… this calls for celebration!